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Saturday, August 3, 2019

The Meg

Thing 2 and Davy lived for shark week. They'd watch all those ridiculous shark movies and laugh their heads off. "The Meg" was scheduled to come out last summer, and Thing 2 was going to take Davy to see it at the movies. Sadly, he was killed before it was released. After spending thousands and thousands of hours of their childhood at Burdette, watching a silly shark movie there seemed like a great way to honor him ... to do one of the things he would have loved to do. I'm sure the movie was expected to be scary ... it wasn't!

Last night a group of us went to Burdette Park for "The Meg Float-In". You could either float around in the pool or lounge in one of the deck chairs while watching "The Meg" ... a cheesy sci-fi movie about scientists accidentally releasing prehistoric megalodons from deep withing the ocean. Wikipedia says megalodons reached a maximum length of 59 feet. However, the ones in the movie were 90 feet long. (Creative license, I suppose!)

The movie wasn't nearly as ridiculous and comical as a lot of shark movies shown during Shark Week, but it wasn't as "scary" as Jaws ... and it was definitely predictable!

My daughters opted to float in the pool most of the time, but us old ladies ... although we all wore swim suits ... opted to sit in deck chairs at the edge of the pool. And, since I'm notoriously early, we were able to grab front row seats. They had to keep the spotlights on so that the lifeguards (and parents) could see everyone, which made it a little difficult to watch the shockingly small screen, but it was still fun hanging out with my daughters and friends and making fun of the plot and dialogue.

There were a lot of people there, but Burdette's baby pull is huge, with plenty of room to accomodate everyone who wanted to float or lounge on the deck. All in all, it was a very pleasant evening, and I'm glad we went.

Thursday, August 1, 2019

I am Really Struggling

After Davy died, I read that sometimes the second year is worse than the first. I really hoped that wasn't going to be the case ... but it is. It's infinitely worse. I have also heard from someone that year three is much, MUCH better. I hate to wish my life away, but I sure wish I were in year three.

I am really struggling to come to terms with the fact that my son is gone ... that his sisters are mourning so deeply for him ... and that he did not get the pleasure of watching is little children grow up. He got just two birthdays with his son and only one with his daughter. To me, that is so sad.

Life isn't fair and it doesn't always make sense. I am working very hard at finding joy and happiness, but at this point in my story, it's eluding me.

One day I'll be whole again. One day I'll laugh and be happy. It's hard to conceive, but I know it's true. I just have to plow through the sludge a while longer to get there.

Wednesday, July 31, 2019


It seems as though another fairy family has taken up residence in my backyard!

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Cozy Coupes

My little family has a long history of driving Cozy Coupes!


Officer Super Why (who looks like he's getting car-jacked!)

Sweet Pea

And Hercules!

He'd rather push the cars around, but sometimes he gets in and drives.

Thursday, July 18, 2019

Another Rainbow!

The other morning there was a complete double rainbow across the sky when I was leaving downtown. Thing 2 said it was Davy saying "Good morning." I like that idea.

Then this morning I was out by the airport around 6:00 and saw a piece of a rainbow. I was hoping Davy would send me another rainbow ... and he did :)

Wednesday, July 17, 2019

Crepe Myrtles

I severely trimmed my Crepe Myrtles the other night. It was kind of sad, because the blooms had to be cut off to get them to the shape I wanted them to be. I had always intended to train them to grow into trees, but I had neglected to trim them, so they were wild. They all got quite a haircut!

I had to stake two of them to draw them straight. They look a little strange (and sad) now ... particularly the one on the far right ... but I'm hoping by next year they'll behave and become the trees they were meant to be!

If they don't make it, I'll rip them out and plant something else!

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Hummingbird Heaven

I ran to Rural King to see what plants they might have on clearance ... nothing but herbs ... so I bought some hummingbird feeders. Five to be exact, so now I have six hummingbird feeders around my house. There's the original one at the kitchen window, one in the living room window, the bathroom window, and outside each bedroom. I barely got them hung before I heard those tiny 747's buzzing by!!

You might have to zoom in to see them ... but they're there!

Monday, July 15, 2019


I had to take a detour, through a rather seedy part of town, and came across this sickening display ...

Can you believe we're still dealing with this in 2019?????

Wednesday, July 10, 2019


I don't live my life to the fullest. I used to, just not lately. Even when I was living to the fullest, I rarely did so with the gusto Davy did ... always! He was fearless and ready for any adventure at a moments notice. I admired that in him and wished it was a quality I possessed more fully. Davy can't go on any more adventures ... but I can go for him. I need to use him for inspiration and LIVE the rest of my life in honor of the adventures Davy will no longer get to take.

Monday, July 1, 2019

A Star for Davy

When we had the cookout a couple weekends ago, one of my sisters and her son stopped by a few hours before the "party". Neither of them could make it to the cookout, but they wanted to drop off a present for me ... a star named in Davy's memory!

I wanted to do this. I went so far as to put a start in my cart, but didn't check out. I am SO grateful to my sister and her family for doing this for me!

My family has been phenomenal this past year as the girls and I mourned Davy. They worried about us, called, sent small gifts, etc. I am very grateful to have such a caring family ... and I hope I'm the only one who has to lose a child. I wouldn't wish something like that on my worst enemy.

This past year has been a challenge and I think the coming year will be challenging as well, but I'm surrounded by friends and family that are always there for me. Despite the tragedies that have visited us these past few years, I still feel very blessed.