I have reason to celebrate and be happy, but I have little desire to do so. I can't wait until this storm in my life is nothing but a frightening and unpleasant memory, and not something I have to deal with anymore.
I'm trying to stay upbeat and remind myself that things could be a lot worse, but it just doesn't feel like Christmas. I'm not sure when I'll have Christmas with my girls or when me and all the my kids can get together and open presents. We may skip Christmas altogether this year. I can't wait to get home and put away all of the decorations I never had time to enjoy.